I am a recovering heroine addict. ?

The last time I shot up, I decided I have had enough. My life had become unmanagable after several attempts to get clean. The worst part is I'm only 20, and what hurts me and makes me feel guilty is I'm a soldier in the army and I have family who call me a hero. I deploy to Afghanistan in 2 months and I assure you, I'm no hero. I look down on myself and know I'm a failure; I failed myself, my family, my battalion, and my creator. I feel I have no purpose and I have wasted so many great opportunities.... Well fed up with my life tired of letting people down, thinking about my mom and dad saying they are proud, picturing their loving, supporting, so incredibly proud faces(which for the first time, they were proud and I could see it as tears rolled from their eyes as I marched across the field graduation day from basic training). These were theimages and thoughts that finally tore my heart as I felt like a fake, pretend hero, the most in-honorable soldier and son, I decided to shoot up 3 times the amount I have ever done. Instantly I knew I had od'd as I closed my eyes and waited to fall into hell where I had accepted I belonged too. When I passes out, all of the sudden I noticed I was awake but I looked down and saw my body convulse on the floor foaming at the mouth and gurgling bleading out my nose. I thought it was a dream as I watched myself stop breathing and my eyes roll back. I stared at myself for 3 hours and woke up to blood from my nose everywhere and foamy saliva all over my face in the same spot/position/same carpet wrinkled up the same way. I don't know but I believe I died for a few minutes. Why did I get a second chance? Do I deserve it? I just want to know I'm not a waste. I've been clean for 77 days now yet I still feel like a failure because all I think of is my parents finally satisfied so proud with tears in their eyes face not knowing I was a junkie. They know now, but I just need some help, advice, am I worthy of "hero"?

How do you make your hair straighter with out heat products?

My little sister has like the most curly hair ever (probably like Taylor swift status maybe a tad bit curlier). I personally really like her hair but, she doesn't and always wants to straighten it. I told her that she should chill on straightening it because, she's going to damage it. So there ya have it.

***************************AWK… SITUATION - DOUBLE DATE WITH BF AND EX BF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*******…

So I am going on a double date w/ my current bf & I found out the other couple is my ex bf & his new gf!!! Yeah, I know. Horrible situation. Anyway, I really don't want my bf & my ex discussing things, if u know what I mean so I want to wear like a disguise and/or look different. For ex, I have brown curly hair. But I am going to straighten it & dye it blonde temporarily. My ex has never seen me in makeup so I am going to get my makeup professionally done so it looks different & I am going to wear a super cute dress. I never wore dresses when I was w/ my ex, only jeans. I am also very pale so I can going to use a self tanner. The thing I am wondering is will this be enough or will he still recognize me? The main thing I am worried about is my teeth. I don't have yellow teeth but they aren't the whitest. But they are crooked & I have a huge overbite. They aren't really mistakable. So I was going to use some white strips & make them super white so my ex won't recognize them, but how still how many ppl do u know w/ crooked teeth? Any other suggestions to disguise myself? Will he still recognize me? Plz don't say just to suck it up & go. That would be extremely awkward & I did some things I'm not proud of when I was w/ my ex (nothing extremely bad) but still I don't want my bf hearing about them. So don't tell me not to do this. I don't really have a choice or my bf might dump me if he hears all this trash from my ex. Plz help! Thx - 10 pts

Would like to know how to handle someone in the family bashing you on facebook?

My sister in law died the middle of May from cancer. Her two boys and her aunt decided to have a memorial for her with the typuical family reunion that occurs yearly. So it is to take place July 2. Their are 4 sisters and one other brother, besides my husband. None of them are going to the memorial. My son talked with his cousin, who bashed me on facebook, until she got my husbands phone number from him and then no more communication with her. She called my husband when his sister died and then texted him the date of the memorial. He never responded. She tells everyone on facebook that if I, his wife, had anything to do with it he would not be going. To me, I can't understand how they don't understand how he feels. He only called his sister after he was prodded to by them. His family doesn't like me and has done things in the past to alienate him from them. Now he has a new cell phone, since April, and no one in the family has the number except her because my son gave it to her. She told my son they would like to him and my husband to come see her before she dies, never mentioning me or my other two sons. They have a history of using my kids to get to my husband. It now is all over the internet that I am blamed for my husband not attending. I do not have a facebook account. My son just put it on my phone, when he didn't have a phone and so there is a part of my phone where I can see it. How do I handle this? All the family has one of these accounts and if they never felt bad about me before they will now. I told my husband he has to straighten this out, but how?

How can you hyperextend your knee without sports?;?

How do people manage to hyperextend their knee while standing still? Is it by quickly bending their knee and quickly straightening it? Or do they kick really hard as to their knee going too far forward? Please... I just want a simple answer!?!

What is the best way to make your hair stay straight?

i have been straightening my hair for quite sometime but its always frizzy and becomes wavy! how do i stop this? whats a good remedy for my crazy hair?

What Results of Thyroid( FNA Results) is it Cancer?

Cytological examination showed, scant colloid, like material, foamy histiocytes and benign looking follicular cells. No malignancy is seen. The cytological features are suggestive of benign thyroid. Please correlate with TFTs and thyroid scan. Thyroid nodule FNAC Cytological evidence suggestive of benign thyroid nodule